for me, it comes down to #1, catching a thought, and #2, staying with it. perhaps “the plan” is a lie, another untruth. one which generates the illusion that one can be in control. and perhaps this is the source of many sadnesses.
so i now see the creative process as always radiating outward, as opposed to filling up some predefined vessel with things. i think it is more about sitting in the center of a thought. and really being there. over and over, at each instant. with all your heart. and letting that instant color every movement and so….everything in your range is part of that thought, is related to your current journey and absolutely everything is there for you to use. and this process is a positive gathering of elements filtered through your heart and it is something new because of that and this is a happy feeling. peace.
and you continue on until you #3, finish ( oh, NO, there is no finish….another untruth…) until you are ready to let it go.
let it go, let it go, let it go. ( singing to the tune of “let it snow”….)
I went into New York, Battery Park City, to a Poet’s House event. Matthea Harvey and Marilyn Nelson. Cozy and enjoyable.
The city stressed me out though. Cold, windy, difficult, ominous. I took photos. I couldn’t acclimate, although I saw lots of interesting things. These are a collection pipes. I felt like a criminal taking pictures of pipes.
sometimes i get the feeling that developing and practicing a craft has far reaching implications in our personal development as well. ..a window of sorts. an edge and a meeting point between the inside and the outside. ….all things being similar, the patience to understand your material, the thought process involved in problem solving… the quiet determination that perfects a thought … the research to connect the dots and make a vision materialize…..
to understand just one thing through and through answers so many other questions for me, and it would culminate in the ability to share that feeling… my never ending quest to answer my main question, is communication really possible?
I am so taken with Jude Hill’s craft that I’ve started reading her whole blog back to 2006.
Side note: Blog software really needs to support rereading a whole blog in chronological order. Using the archives, I can read monthly in chronological order, but within each month, I have to read in reverse chronological order. It causes a whiplash effect as I see results then run into posts on planning, but it’s worth it.
I think my main question is related to hers. I would phrase it “is intimacy really possible?”
I am committed to developing personal symbols. This is a process of attention. First one: the heavy curly bracket.It really has an impact, even if there is nothing inside.
I enjoy making digital crops of scans of painted/collaged papers. They are almost always more intriguing than the full pieces I have worked over. There’s a captivating randomness for how those small elements ended up next to each other, which is always a surprise. Sometimes I crop different areas of the same piece, but find there is always one that seems most pleasing. This is a kind of attention.
VAC is recurring. Vacation. Vache. Voice. Vacuuming. From Wikipedia:
Vāk or Vāc (stem vāc-, nominative vāk) is the Sanskrit word for “speech”, from a verbal root vac- “speak, tell, utter”.
Personified, Vāk is a goddess; in the Veda she is also represented as created by Prajapati and married to him; in other places she is called the “mother of the Vedas” and wife of Indra. In Hinduism, she is identified with Bharati or Sarasvati.
I went to hear the Dalai Lama’s teachings at the Beacon Theater.
It was mostly a visual experience, and also one of noting human nature.
The monks’ robes were quite interesting, all that fabric, color, and draping that they had well in hand.
I have more to say about this, don’t know if I will post it here.