{"id":36,"date":"2004-01-24T16:38:25","date_gmt":"2004-01-24T23:38:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/?p=36"},"modified":"2004-01-24T16:38:25","modified_gmt":"2004-01-24T23:38:25","slug":"from-the-closet","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/2004\/01\/from-the-closet\/","title":{"rendered":"from the closet"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Some of the poems have a shape, some don&#8217;t. <\/p>\n<p>I chickened out and let other people read them. Immediately I felt this was a mistake. I wanted to take over and perform them, because I can perform them the way they should be performed. I&#8217;m surprised how strongly I feel that these poems are performance pieces. Hard admission for a shy person. <\/p>\n<p>I feel more motivated to perform than to publish. <\/p>\n<p>Maybe I need to live with one page at a time. It&#8217;s easy to skim over them without paying close attention when I&#8217;m editing the whole mess. <\/p>\n<p>I have problems with plot and narrative anyway. <\/p>\n<p>I still wish for a teacher. I accept that I&#8217;m not ready for a teacher. <\/p>\n<p>I accept the task of learning to write by writing, learning to edit by editing, learning to perform by performing. <\/p>\n<p>And my routine is changing so I don&#8217;t know where I&#8217;ll go from here.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Some of the poems have a shape, some don&#8217;t. I chickened out and let other people read them. Immediately I felt this was a mistake. I wanted to take over and perform them, because&#46;&#46;&#46;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-36","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=36"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=36"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=36"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gemtactics.net\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=36"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}