I worked on a spreadsheet all day. I was a thousand ants. Meanwhile, there’s nothing to figure out. <\/p>\n
I want the Dark Mother. The expression of negativity and destruction, the extreme expression. Why do I love her so much? <\/p>\n
I’m not giving You up
\nNo matter how You glare at me. <\/p>\n
What’s all this teasing and tricks, Mother,
\nWhen I go to get what’s mine?<\/i><\/p>\n
I pulled out Ramprasad Sen – “Grace and Mercy in Her Wild Hair.” I feel distant from the fervency, found it a little funny, outrageous, devotional, used-to-be familiar. But I was not really all that touched, not ready to go get what’s mine. <\/p>\n
Maybe I’m due for a fast from reading. Or a fast from the many thousand things. <\/p>\n
She was throwing her jewelry around tonight. Smile-moon and beauty-mark Venus (?) in the early night sky. <\/p>\n
Prasad says: Your games, Mother,
\nAre mysteries. You make and break.
\nYou’ve broken me in this life.<\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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