slow thoughts on a fast day
I am still avidly reading Jude Hill’s archives. It is a wonderful experience. Novel-like, but mostly images. I find her work so compelling and informative to my own questions.
oddly enough, selling work is less difficult than thinking about it. at least that is how it seems right now. in some ways it is rewarding but there is an element of interruption in what i like the most about creating. the flow. the slowness and lack of schedule. fitting the stitches into the rhythm of the rain or matching the colors to the weather. holding the time it takes in my hands. ignoring the destination…having no particular place to go.
It seems like a revelation to me that you can discover and embrace what you like most. And that slow wandering is okay to like.
It is very important to discern what you like and what you don’t like. This relates to the Buddhist term vedanā, relating to pleasant, unpleasant, and neutral sensations. Since I learned this term, I often find myself spontaneously categorizing some fleeting sensation. Most recently, I labeled beating eggs in a bowl as a sensation I find very pleasant. There is nothing else to do at that point, just noticing.
…the best solution i can find is using some rule outside myself. one that includes less pressure and no authority. i have chosen a lunar cycle. that suits me. it contains no hard feelings, and a personal rhythm that is more like a gentle reminder.
I love this solution of looking for a gentle rule outside yourself. I need to come up with some of these. I have never been able to tune myself to the lunar cycle. Something to think about.
Jude Hill, undoing a business cycle, June 10 2009