tempering mastery

When the preferred solution is impossible, the goal instead is to temper one’s need for mastery. This means being able to accept an imperfect situation. It requires immense flexibility and the belief that one is choosing to accept and live with the ambiguity rather than continuing to perceive oneself as being the helpless victim of it.

Boss, Loss, Trauma and Resilience

Face2_20June2016

when to speak

blank pages
seem to be a form of
silence

the friendliness of
silence
like a bed of soothing pillows

silence
in the morning mid-day evening
missed phone calls, no voice mail

lost the blazes
lost the trail
woods are silent

shield and sword
silence
can be both

listening and letting go
the quality of silence
the tone of people’s voices

Face1_20June2016

sprint 4

focus this week at work
sprint 4 functional requirements
lots of review comments to resolve
“we get a better product”
have to admit
my imagination fails me at a certain point
but having to accept the challenge
“I have no other choice”
not a sentence I like to use
but seems to be coming up
here there everywhere
makes it easier

things I never did before

use baking soda and vinegar to clean the stovetop
take the drawer under the stove out for cleaning
vacuum underneath the stove through that hole
put the huge cast iron grates from the stovetop into the dishwasher
throw the rubbery mats used to line the drawers into the washing machine
clean the house for three solid days straight

very grouchy

cleaning the cupboards

apply a paste of baking soda and a bit of Dr. Bronner’s soap
then scrub and wipe around the
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then use a towel to polish inside the
handle
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out, in

around the windows on the second floor
every crevice in the frame
enjoy looking out through the pleasure of clean glass

inside the cupboards in the kitchen
some with a layer of crumbs (vacuuming)
some with a layer of dust (wiping with sponge)
some with a layer of grime (water vinegar mixture with baking soda)
enjoy looking into clean spaces